too much to ask?!

As of now I'm already 20, I hate to admit it but I'm leaving the teen bracket already and entering the bigger, tougher world of young adults...
I just realized something... I don't have any friends.

How did i arrived to this conclusion? Simple... I'm alone on my birthday. I got money for a party but nobody can make it for all sorts of reason. I don't have a single gift (well, thanks for the sms but i would really like a gift even if it's a joint effort). I tried asking almost all but all i got rejection. What the use of having a birthday when you can't or nobody cared?!

I hate being pitied but i can't help it if it is in front of my face, laughing like the devil himself.

Could somebody tell me what's wrong with me that makes me feel other people would rather sleep than go out with me, almost avoiding me like i have leprosy or a nuke bomb with me. It really freaks me out, am i that boring? am i that pathetic?

I'm sick, so-so sick of it!!! why can't other people try to make me happy even for just this day by surprising me, when i happen to be there when they need me or I've been spending me days making other people happy.

Is it too much to ask?!